人生總有高低起跌.....
盡管你是什麼人,都一樣有起有跌...
今天的我,什麼都沒有了....)=
我試著滿足表面的所有...
可是都不能滿足心靈上的.......
現在一個人瑟縮在床邊的一角...
哭著,苦惱著,思考著....
我嘗試把自己做到最好!!!...
可是我的角色都只是一個副角....
但不甘心的我,最了得的就是打不死...

I dun k whr v go..Bcoz i love u

愛情不是單方面的
誰明白????


我很傷,傷透頂了......

Chase This Light.

I'm rather irritated by someone...No its not my ex...Don't worry...Its other mega douches...I just don't get it...Hv ppl lost d ability to take hints nw or what...?Seriously,everyday all I get is..

hey!!whassup??

Fuck man,I hv ntg to say to u n its pretty obvious our conversations go nwhere...So just leave me d fuck alone...Its so irritating ppl like u,especially after that time when I was doing that online test n u decide that me telling u to shut the fuck up only applies to u talking to me...Get fucking real,some dickheads hv ntg better to do with their time or what???n u think its just me getting pissed???Oh man I'm nt d only one...FUCK...Getting majorly irritated...I don't even knw why I made fren with u,I've made fren with cunts like u in d past n it doesn't end well...Its gonna b 1 of d same...Fuck some ppl just piss me off...TAKE A FUCKIGN HINT...n that girl your chasing,no fuckign wonder she is so cold,coz u r so fucking irritating..I dono...whatever,,I hope u get hit by a bus...Wow, feel much better

haha

But just for fun,I'm gonna set a trap, n I'll argue for d sake of arguing...Coz v all knw its fun...

Silence

Run away n nvr return...



Do what u do best n gv up....I'll watch as 1 day u regret it...But this time....I'm nt goin to waver or bek down...No nt this time...Coz u will b dead to me...Everything abt u will b removed...Every piece... n if I see u, I'll look straight into your eyes...But I wont say hi, no not this time, cause I wont feel guilty...I wont hv any reason to b ashamed...I won't regret...

Do what u want infront of me, hold who ever tighter, grip their hand kiss them deep...I knw they wont k as much as I did...That each time u will get just enough to survive but u will live a wretched half life....Always pondering d question of what if....

Come to your senses, come knocking to my door...Bang at my window at 5am...But I'm nt thr anymore...But a distant memory no more...Just a shadow d dark figure in d nite...But no, u r nt real, nt to me....u're dead to me...I won't regret...

What were we hoping for???

V Promised d world v'd tame it, What were v hoping for...?



I just dun get y some ppl insist on making life complicating...Just some ppl r so damn selfish...They dun think that others hv their own life n that ppl just want to do what they want by themselves...y can't A Just hv left me alone...Things v're so gud nw they r all annoying, I feel d sense of irritation rising n its so hard to keep my anger in check these days...Nt just that, some dumb shits r absolutly pissing me off...I mean its plainly obvious that I dun1 to talk to u so much if i Just ignore u all d time right...But bek to that later...


I just wish that A had hv left me alone...Let d sleeping dogs lie...Nw its too far ahead, n I'm nt sure that being fren will work, its like she will always b watching my bek n I dun mean in d way that is helpful...Its d I'm keeping an eye on d other girls in ur life so I can pick them off 1 by 1...I mean in theory its a nice thing to say that there is a girl waiting around for me, but the more I think abt it d more I realize that its nt worth my while....I dun knw hw I feel abt her at all....d thing is I dun feel as much or any of d spark anymore...Can it come bek...? I dun knw...But I dun1 this to b a problem...

Cast away d shackles that hold ur feet to d ground...

No 1 will hold me back in this lifetime....These days r fucking mine...Yes I knw I say that in every entry n thats hw things hv been goin lately..I'm nt gonna let them all push me around with their whims n fancy...I'm nt like d others as A found out, n if they think that I need to prove myself....Well I'm nt so sure.. I know more in the past 3 months abt myself...I knw what I'm nt n I knw more abt what I hv to do....Yeah I'm nt d nicest person this side of d world...But I'm nt some ruthless fuck either....Thr is always a chance to bide my turn n its only with trust that d poison is fed with d spoon...


Some ppl need to calm the fuck down these days...Thr is this friend, everytime on MSN hes like DUDE, or hey....n if I dun reply its like - 'u thr'.... Fuck its nt like thr is anything to talk abt anyway...n iono y he just doesnt go disturb other friends...I mean if I say B BEK LTR n I dun reply then obviously IM NT BEK YET...FML FML FML....Thats d thing, I make fren with such irritating ppl sometimes....It fucking sucks...If thr is some1 I 1 to talk to then I'll talk to them, n thr isn't anything new to talk abt....All he freaking says is - Oh I 1 that girl, this girl is a cold chick....Rah rah rah, its all crap n I'm so bored talking to them...n when I say play it cool to him, he doesnt understand that its with every1....Whats more, when that douche was tired all he did was sit thr n talk crap b4 he went home, y cant he just go home then, its not like he has to wait around if hes bored and tired....FUCK, I did crack d shits when he didn't shut the fuck up when I was doin a test, I was so close to freaking throwing my laptop at him, et he doesnt take d hint that yeah maybe he does irritate the fuck thru me....

Thr r others too...n its just riddiculus... Some ppl think that their trivial things r so important.....n like they think they r so gud with that they dun need to do things...I won't name names, but its just riddiculus, n Yeah I had a fucking angry fit at them as well as my freaking printer when it all screwed up....So disappointing some ppl, I dun think that they realize when they get a 2nd chance they aren't supposed to fuck it up...I'm happy with life....Just annoyed by d ppl in it...Yes I knw I'm back to all this bitching....






I'm pissed n I think this week I hv to annoint 3 5 FUCK WITS.

A

Dumb bitch who pissed me off last week

Dumb ass who won't leave me alone



laters

I Will Live This life n every life without any regrets....

I will nt look back at this decision in d future n regret....

As D said, its better for feel guilty than to feel used...

She had her chance long ago, nw its time to invest my time into d people that matter...

What do u want me to say???That I miss u too??Coz really I don't...Thr is nothing left from me, n thr nvr will b...Our lives changed paths long ago, n thats just hw it is...d world is harsh, just grow up...u live your life your way n I'll live mine my way...I don't k if I'm wrong, coz by me, I knw that I am doin everything right...Thr is no good guy or bad guy in this...No winner or loser... v both lost n gained at some point..But with each passing instance with each passing moment I knw i gain more self respect...It makes me stronger...It vindicates me...I don't need some1 like u in my life...Thats y things hv been so good lately...Thats y I nvr call...Thats y I nvr reply...u'r long dead to me, n my life is so much richer...Don't open up old wounds, just let is all pass n move on with your life...Don't justify urself n say that u r doin d right thing, coz u'r nt...

What u r???

I knw what u r...I knw what u r tryin to do...To justify 1 self with frivolous actions..That makes me fucking SICK..'I thought v were all gud' Yeah.... I lie...I hv ntg to say to u...v aren't gud coz I just don't want to talk to u anymore...Is it anymore obvious...Of course I blocked u...I deleted your number...Hell u think u r so important that I 1 to keep a track of u..And here IS A FUCKING HINT...Stay away frm my facebook...Its just annoying when I didn't add u as a fren...Surely that means u HV NO FUCKING right to talk to me on thr...I forgot to chg my settings but so what...What makes u think I give an ass abt u or ur fucking life...u burned d final piece of d bridge last time by say 'oh b4 u hear it from other ppl'...In what world do I want to knw d details...If u wanna rub it in then go ahead...Whatever...I stopped needing shit like u in my life a long time ago...Yeah when I was talking abt casting away d shackles I mean't u...u held me back. I dont want that EVER AGAIN...I dun1 to see u...I dun1 to hear from u...I don't want anything frm u after I get my things bek...Yeah, I'll get them bek...Doesn't mean I'm goin to go see u...haha
Don't kid urself and don't make me into the bad guy to justify urself...u tried too late...u left it to the last 2nd when u thought I was goin to leave u called me...Thats why I ignore d texts...n I've been gone a long time ago...I closed the fucking door and if u come knocking no 1 is home...

一个人要走多远

历经多少沧桑才会累

什么地方才是家

为了谁才留下

一个人要想多久

历经多少挫折才会懂

不再轻易掉眼泪

不再轻易说今生无悔,无怨

用一生做试验

为谁放弃一切

我不再是我

谁又是谁

别问我的伤

别问我的痛

别问我的心中是否在流血

别问我是否心已碎

别问酒逢故人醉不醉

别问我的苦

别问我的悲

别问我的流浪是否很疲惫

别问我是否还有泪

别问魂萦旧梦对不对

也别问我会不会

THIS LYRIC SO SUITABLE FOR ME***

I WILL B LESS ON..

BYE